Micolash, Host of the Nightmare (
grantuseyes) wrote2017-12-02 10:17 pm
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Healing a Nightmare ((For
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So much of the ordeal blurred together. The time spent speaking with the likes of Faris, April, Tina and others at a party was a lifetime ago. Did it even happen at all? What if this is him truly waking up now? What if everything before was another reality, another Dream, one that's broken under the strain of frenzy and now he, having gone through the grueling process of adaptation once again, has surfaced someplace entirely new? What if it was all a figment entirely, one crafted by a consciousness untethered from the physical body, lost and searching, alone in the darkness and desperate for stimulation, for sense?
The realest thing to him right now are the sensations of his searing blood, the culmination of it reaching its crescendo marked by forming into a stone-like spear and punching up through his skin. Piercing him with the unusual properties of the godsblood he still holds in his frail and human veins when meeting mind-melting truths of thought.
His blood sings and flows stronger now, stabilizing Micolash's punished body. The Old Blood injected into him, once, twice, thrice, working its near-magic on keeping the man living and breathing.
Our thirst for blood satiates us, soothes our fears...
There are memories of fleeting moments, visions. The young man from the Nexus, the dreamwalker, speaking his name. A woman grasping his hand in hers. Messengers crowding around his body. The seated Amygdala statue presiding over his torment.
Red and black. Black and red. Beams of orange streaked over it all. Swallowing it all.
Wet. Always dripping wet. The floor, the stone, his body. An unpleasant stickiness in the rare opportunity it was allowed to dry. Under his nails, filling his mouth, flooding his nostrils, streaming down his face from the eyes.
The pain. The pain. The tearing, the shredding, the piercing, the burning, the cutting, the screaming.
He remembers screaming. He remembers screaming until his throat tore itself raw and then he screamed again. And again. And again.
He remembers pain most vividly and at first Micolash cannot be certain if now it is just the deep-seated, close-by memory burning bright against his skin. Or if it is the one thing he carried with him wholly through the end of the Nightmare.
Micolash cannot stir. There is no way to move himself under his own power. He hangs limply in Abysa's arms and whimpers. He is awake in the barest sense of the word and he wishes dearly that he was not.
It hurts.
It hurts.
It hurts.
The realest thing to him right now are the sensations of his searing blood, the culmination of it reaching its crescendo marked by forming into a stone-like spear and punching up through his skin. Piercing him with the unusual properties of the godsblood he still holds in his frail and human veins when meeting mind-melting truths of thought.
His blood sings and flows stronger now, stabilizing Micolash's punished body. The Old Blood injected into him, once, twice, thrice, working its near-magic on keeping the man living and breathing.
Our thirst for blood satiates us, soothes our fears...
There are memories of fleeting moments, visions. The young man from the Nexus, the dreamwalker, speaking his name. A woman grasping his hand in hers. Messengers crowding around his body. The seated Amygdala statue presiding over his torment.
Red and black. Black and red. Beams of orange streaked over it all. Swallowing it all.
Wet. Always dripping wet. The floor, the stone, his body. An unpleasant stickiness in the rare opportunity it was allowed to dry. Under his nails, filling his mouth, flooding his nostrils, streaming down his face from the eyes.
The pain. The pain. The tearing, the shredding, the piercing, the burning, the cutting, the screaming.
He remembers screaming. He remembers screaming until his throat tore itself raw and then he screamed again. And again. And again.
He remembers pain most vividly and at first Micolash cannot be certain if now it is just the deep-seated, close-by memory burning bright against his skin. Or if it is the one thing he carried with him wholly through the end of the Nightmare.
Micolash cannot stir. There is no way to move himself under his own power. He hangs limply in Abysa's arms and whimpers. He is awake in the barest sense of the word and he wishes dearly that he was not.
It hurts.
It hurts.
It hurts.
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His lips move, as does his tongue, trying to form words. A word. Anything. Trying to respond to Abysa's words that feel and sound so far away. Finally, one is said weakly, little more than a breath.
"...Kin..."
The effort ends with Micolash's mouth hanging open again, even moving his jaw so briefly enough to strain the tender muscles there.
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"It is me, yes, the 'kin'. You are back here now with me, in your room. Henry is here too. I will need to spend some more time healing you, but it will be slower now. Would you like to sleep more? You need not stay awake for me."
Abysa sets aside the empty vial and its stopper for now, edging closer to his patient. On impulse, he leans down once more to give him another kiss. Rather than the forehead this time, he places a gentle, warm kiss on the human's mouth. He comes away from it with a bit of blood on his own lips, but seems not bothered by it so much as saddened.
Henry, seemingly curious, sniffs at his human master with great thoroughness. Each unfamiliar scent on that borrowed cape, the somewhat unpleasant undertone to his blood, and a number of other smells that are otherworldly give the feline familiar much to ponder over, in whatever way a Henry may ponder. He settles near Micolash eventually, purring deep.
"All will be well, now. I am sorry I could not - I really should have.. ah..." Abysa sighs, trying to find the words.
"If I had been more vigilant, perhaps. I could have kept better watch over you. You were nearly upon the shores of Death's river, and I brought you back just in time. If I had lost you..." Oh, that would be awkward, wouldn't it? If he begged his dearest Lord of Death to fish out the soul of a rotten mortal from the river? But he would do so all the same.
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Hearing Abysa's voice and feeling Henry's purrs, though. Feeling the bed underneath him, the cloth wrapped around him. Little things that are all adding up slowly, agonizingly so, to inform the unlikely fact: he's not in the Nightmare anymore. Whatever that Nightmare was, surely not his, was it? But it was a Nightmare all the same. He would know. And now it is over. It must be. It has to be.
"Kin. P-...Please..." The words are small and weak. The motion of his hand twitching nearer to Abysa even moreso. "Hold-...Hold so I. Don't-..." So he does not what, it's uncertain, as Micolash cannot muster any further words. But he remembers a hand. Smaller, softer, the fingers slender and woven between his. A hand holding his own as the spears of frenzied Old Blood continued to punch through his body. Something to reassure him that he is not alone.
He need's Abysa's hand to do the same for him now.
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"You are safe, and back... back home. Let that knowledge give you peace, and dull your pain."
Without letting go, Abysa concentrates once more on channeling his own inner power into a healing spell, letting it flow from himself into the weakened human where their hands meet. The spell isn't instant, nor will it be noticeable at first, more like a subtle fog rolling in that becomes thicker over time. As time passes, Micolash may feel it, bit by bit. It is as though one must fill a parched canyon with one ewer of water at a time, Abysa thinks, and feels, his empathy able to sense just how deep the frenzy had wounded his charge.
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That's always been a strange word to him. How can anyone feel at home anywhere when the entire plane you exist upon grates and feels foreign? How can someone who yearns to live amongst the stars make peace with calling any dwelling on earth his home?
The last time he ever thought of a place with that word was the house he grew up in. Home was where you retreated to hide, home was where the woman who gave birth to you lets you bury your face in her apron or cower behind her skirts, home is where he arranges and sorts his most precious belongings and findings and keeps them.
He has not had a home in a long time. And now this kin of the unknowable says this is home.
This is home.
The healing and this thought swirling inside of him makes Micolash's body relax further. Makes the pain ebb deeper. Holding Abysa's hand weakly, the scholar sighs, his head falling further against the pillow with his eyes still closed. His poor eyes...
Abysa's psychic probe will find...a lot. So much psychic damage inside Micolash's skull, that horrible latent frenzy wrecking havoc with nothing to contain or control it. Muscles that have pulled themselves to the point of tearing all over his body. Internal damage to things beneath the skin, especially the tissue of his back and chest, where those spears pierced him. A throat gone raw from screaming, catastrophic blood loss, broken fingernails from clawing at stone. And his eyes...
They are closed and likely will remain that way, but the damage to them is just as bad as his brain. Another casualty of the frenzy as their function links so terribly closely with the Truth it represents. Damaged is putting it mildly. They are nearly destroyed.
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"There is so much to be done... But I suppose the eyes in particular will need special attention." He mumbles to himself.
"Micolash, are you awake still?" He says, clearer now that he is addressing his patient. Henry's ears twitch at the sound but remains in kitty dreamland, whiskers twitching just slightly.
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Micolash makes a weak noise in response. His fingers twitch in Abysa's hands.
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"If you like, I can lull you to sleep like I have before. Ah, with the magic." Abysa clarifies, waiting some sort of positive or negative noise from the human.
"It will help with tonight's healing, if that is incentive." He adds.
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He does not want to be aware any longer. He has been too aware this whole while leading up to this sorry state.
The scholar nods weakly, just once, a single dip of his chin. Please. Put him to rest and ensures he stays there.
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As much as he feels lonely now that Micolash's consciousness is drifting in the realm of sleep, Abysa knows that now is the time to prepare properly for his patient. He nudges Henry awake, (Henry responds with a whine and a wide yawn), checks Micolash one more time to assure the spell has taken, and sets about to work.
Much of the night is spent cleaning, as the poor scholar's body is caked with dried blood. Abysa works patiently, opting to clean him with a cloth and basin rather than dip him in the bath. Something pleasant like a bath is better left to when he is awake, and requires comforting. He has to refill the basin more than once, the water becoming cloudy and dark with old blood being rinsed from the hand-cloth (which will now not likely resemble its old colour ever again, stained a sickly rusted colour even after a washing).
The bed is then prepared with new sheets and blankets. Though soft, they are of a special fabric woven expertly by demonic hands to account for messes efficiently (that is, absorbing much and dampening little), which will be handy, considering the amount of blood Micolash is prone to losing. The embroidery is white on black, depicting various demonic designs, mostly stylized depictions of native underworld plantlife.
Abysa also spares no expense drawing up an order for more supplies from his home realm, scrawling it on parchment as he occasionally looks to his sleeping charge. It is then rolled up into a tight scroll, which Abysa affixes to Henry via a handsome ribbon around his neck. The nice thing about Hell-born cats is that they understand how to navigate through the portals and channels needed to reach their destination. This makes them perfect messengers, if one corresponds often with demons.
Once Henry is sent on his errand, Abysa seats himself back near Micolash, who is now significantly cleaner, and tucked in with new and clean blankets. It is an improvement, at least by looks alone, yet the human still looks so frail and wan. It still feels too much like a deathbed, and not simply his bed. With some time before Henry returns, and before the scholar will wake, Abysa sits himself cross-legged besides him, bows his head, and begins to pray.
It is rare for him to pray seriously in this manner; clothed and chaste, rather than reveling in the pleasure of a ritual, but his spirits are low and his drive similarly so. Instead, he prays with all his might that one of his dear Lords will take the chaste and solemn plea of their betrothed with seriousness.
It feels like hours pass as he remains in that spot, begging for a merciful blessing. He is about to weep from feeling dejected before he senses an answer. There are no words, no visions, but the echo of his loves' affection and well-wishes. It is a soft, encouraging warmth that fills him from within his skull, and down his spine, until he feels refreshed and relaxed.
He wonders if they called each other first to discuss what the problem might be before their answer. It had happened before. Oh, they better not send an entourage with Henry if that is the case...
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To think this night nearly put a sudden end to Micolash's unlikely second chance at life.
The magic works as Abysa hoped it would, keeping the human asleep through all of the priest's tasks. He does not wake during the cleaning, turning, changing of the sheets. Instead, he dreams strangely. Very strangely. Images that make little sense and are entirely unfamiliar.
A striped tent with a straw carpet and empty, broken cages.
A dustbowl, the land gone arid and fallow. The distant sound of gunfire.
A party of white-dressed people, silently mingling amongst themselves, hiding their faces.
A small hamlet gone deadly silent. A building burns bright and unchecked.
A metal building, the material making up every surface, awash in red light.
A dark dungeon, the floors stained with old blood. A lone, bloodied knife the only thing there.
A vice-like cage lined with inward facing spikes. Already sprung and closed.
A grander version of his Nightmare of Mensis, resplendent with staircases and fog.
It is two days before the scholar awakens.
He stirs first, attempting to raise an arm that's underneath the covers, wanting to bring it to rub at his face. The inside of his mouth tastes like copper. Hesitantly, he opens his eyes.
Nothing.
He sees nothing.
Micolash rushes to tug his arm free now, yanking it from under the covers. His muscles ache but he doesn't notice. His hand touches his face, his eyes, feeling for a bandage or a covering.
There is none.
His fingers are soon shaking when he feels closer. Ensuring that, yes, his eyes are open. He is touching his eyelids and they are open fully. He is staring upwards from his bed.
And he sees.
Nothing.
Micolash screams.
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"Micolash! I am here! What is the-" Abysa, even as a demon without eyes, knows right away that Micolash's eyes look very, very bad.
"Oh, no no no. Micolash, dear, close your eyes again, do not panic. They are very sensitive right now. Let me explain it to you." He floats over to the bed to land, sitting neatly next to his distressed friend.
"I am right here, now. I am going to put my hand on your arm, so that you know I am." He puts one hand to Micolash's thin upper arm gingerly.
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Abysa's presence does little to calm Micolash. In his horror, he's rolled over and pushed himself up with his other arm. His hand continues to feel and grope desperately at his face, frantic to see anything. Anything. Pushing his lids open, pulling them wider, panicked for his sight.
He hasn't stopped screaming in horror and fright, even when Abysa comes near and touches him. Instead, it makes Micolash jump in surprise. And then he's clawing and grabbing for Abysa instead. All with those awful eyes still wide open and still unseeing.
"I can't see!" his voice cracks. "Kin! I can't see! I can't see!" The horror of this situation continues to creep upon him, sinking in deep enough that he finally gasps a ragged sob.
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"Yes, Micolash, but please calm yourself! And close your eyes! Focus on being close to me instead. Let me explain." The physical contact is not just an emotional salve, but the demon's calming aura is strengthened with proximity and touch. This makes subduing the frenzy much easier.
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Only when the demon's hand rests on the back of his head as well does Micolash's struggles start to subside. His eyes are still open wide and staring straight forward at nothing with his cheek pressed to Abysa's chest. His breathing is rapid, loud, ragged. Hyperventilating and whining in abject terror. His eyes! His eyes! What happened to his eyes!?
"Kin, I can't see. Where is-...Where are my eyes! Kin, I can't see, I can't seeee-hee-heeeee..." The last of it drags out and hitches in helpless sobs. Tears are streaming from this tortured man's eyes now and, perhaps predictably, they come in the form of crimson blood.
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Should he fail that, Abysa will simply clap one hand over the scholar's face to obscure the orange light emanating from his pupils.
"I know you are frightened, but all will be well. I need you to calm yourself, so I may tell you what will happen."
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Micolash is shivering and whimpering, his hands grabbing onto Abysa's robes as best he can with his arms pinned as they are. His red tears stain the cloth his face rests against, similarly pinned there as well.
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"Of your many injuries, which I am treating carefully, your eyes have certainly suffered the worst. I suspect it is on account of their proximity and direct connection to your brain, as well as their significance in your world's mysticism. They have become extremely sensitive, and the tissue is badly damaged, the majority of your eye is engorged with blood, while your pupils appear to be projecting that awful frenzying light. My best guess as to the reason is that, the optic nerve has taken a sort of metaphysical blow from your ordeal that is causing it to bleed that light out through the lense of the eye." Abysa pauses for a moment, just to lean down and give the top of Micolash's head a kiss. Ah, his hair still smells of blood, though he had carefully untangled out dried blood and combed it thoroughly. It will take a proper bath to fix that.
"While it must sound terribly frightening, paired with your inability to see, I believe that this injury is treatable. I cannot stress enough, however, that you should avoid having your eyes open or pupils unobstructed as much as possible for this process. I am using my healing abilities to mend your body and soothe your mind, and this means I am expending as much of my energy that I can spare, for every day that will pass from now, until possibly days or weeks, maybe even months, hereafter." Which also means Abysa is spending some fraction of his strength keeping that frenzy under wraps at all times, rather than let Micolash wear his cage. (The cage is now nowhere to be seen, hidden as is the demon's way.) While his naturally-occurring aura is normally enough on its own, Abysa is taking no chances now, while recovery is still unpredictable.
"In the meantime, I was to propose when you awoke, that you become acclimated to wearing a blindfold. In fact, I will even gift you some that I personally have worn! This next while will be difficult while you adjust to the temporary loss of a sense, but Henry and I are here to aid you. Oh, well, Henry is not here right now, but he will return."
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That additional kiss continues to work its uncanny magicks upon Micolash's mind, tamping down even further the frenzy inside him. Removing another layer of that seething fire, or at least burying it for now. It does the same in calming Micolash's state of mind. Less frantic and confused, but still beside himself with fear and dread.
"You ha-...You have to," he chokes out as he turns his head to rest his forehead against the demon's chest instead. Pulling at his clothing to be held closer still, to be picked up and kept in his lap. "You have to fix them. You have to, Kin. Without my eyes..." Oh gods, he can't even dwell on the implications. The mere thought of losing his sight, his eyes. Everything his studies ever centered around, gone...
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Abysa does as Micolash wordlessly wishes, and pulls him to be seated on his lap. One needs no arms, nor does Micolash need to strain his weak and torn muscles to move, he is simply swept into a more comfortable position by the priest's psychic manipulation. Abysa finds this arrangement much more comfortable for him as well, able to pull a blanket up to wrap around the human's shoulders, before holding him close.
"Do you understand? I will heal you every day, if you wish it. Every minute, every second that passes between now and your sight's return, I can give a portion of my own spirit's vitality to ensure that not a sliver of time passes where my magic is not flowing through you. This is how deep my promise goes. Say it, and it will be done. Our bond has become strong enough to facilitate such a spell." Indeed, Abysa has taken notice, ever since the night they spent gazing at the stars, that the connection between their beings has become more potent. Certainly, the rituals and offerings had something to do with it; but that is what the priest had claimed all along, much to Micolash's disbelief.
"And, should even the power of a High Priest of Hell fail you, one need only find new eyes. Humanely, of course. I know all the right connections." He adds, trying to be reassuring.
"Not that you will need thus! Am I not a being of great power?" He's trying.
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What if Abysa DOES fail?
What if he's separated from the demon and it disrupts the process?
What if only one eye is restored and the other a lost cause?
What if his eyes are never quite the same and only for the worse?
What IF...
"...I must. I must take that offer. Please, Kin. Give me back my sight..."
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"Ah, keep in mind, this means part of my magic, generated by my soul, will be siphoned to you in the form of a healing mark. It will be as so until your eyesight is restored, in whatever way that is accomplished. We could seal it with a kiss, if you like. I do not think a blood pact will be necessary or a good idea." Actually, it's a good idea to keep as much blood in Micolash as he can.
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But Micolash has never been one to balk at unwise risks or questionable choices. It's one of his finest qualities. And every second ticking past is another second the man is left without sight or not actively working towards regaining it. And besides, he's of the same mind as Abysa. Him shedding anymore blood is the last thing he cares to do right now.
"This is more than amenable to me." He tilts his head upwards now, looking towards Abysa. He's in no condition to try and be the one to initiate this pact. That's a good way to get your skulls clonked together: by a blind man trying to land things. Micolash does however, unwisely or unthinkingly, opens his eyes again. Those horrid pupils are looking sightless and directly into Abysa's face.